Have you ever felt like everything around you is crumbling... like there is no escape and all you want to do is run away? But for emotional, financial, or other circumstancial reasons, you can't even have the luxury of running away?
I've felt it. I've been feeling like this for the past 5 months. And I have to say that it's not my favorite feeling in the world.
You feel beat done, unworthy, not enough, and vulnerable.
But these moments also allow you to experience your biggest growth and also the generosity and support of the people around you. Even if you may not notice it in the beginning.
When I used all my hard earned savings to help a community in East Africa that was going through a famine, got kicked out of my home, lost relationships with certain friends and family, and experienced a low period in my business, I thought everything was ruined. That I was a failure and that everyone would abandon me.
But what happened... old friends offered me to stay with them in their homes until I found a new place, new friends shared their own experiences of burnout and compassion fatigue, and other friends offered to help donate to Mozambique so that I could take care of myself for a bit.
All these acts of kindness brought me joy, but they also made me wildly uncomfortable and vulnerable. They made me depend on others and be generous with myself.